Click on link to watch the quick video by Pastor Craig of LifeChurch.

https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=1585138071544771&id=10454796293713

I had a frustrating morning yesterday. Somehow I managed to lock my keyboard app and after many hours of troubleshooting, and calling my provider, I had no choice but to reset my phone.

Resetting Sucks!!!

Because basically you loose all your contacts, photos, and work. If you haven’t backed up your stuff….poof! Prepare to watch the disappearing act!

I keep having these little technical difficulties and it just makes me irritable because I already have all these other little nuisances in my life.

For example, having to blog from my smartphone since my laptop died. And considering, I’m already a blind old bat, this is VERY IRKSOME!

Also, trying to blog and write past midnight when my two toddlers are asleep. Bring on the caffeinated beverages!

My “writing hours” are supposed to be from midnight until 3 a.m. Since that’s mostly the only uninterrupted time I can usually find.

These are my little monsters in the picture below. Don’t let their cuteness factor fool you. They’re gremlins I tell you! Boy do they wreak some havoc on the daily!

And when my baby does NOT want to go to sleep, he insists on sitting on my lap. Even though he sees me trying to write with my one free hand. But let me tell you…..he does NOT care.

So….yes, I get extremely stressed out. Being a full time mommy, while trying not to lose my own identity is difficult.

I feel like that woman in the boxing movie I reviewed last week. I just want to give up sometimes because it’s too hard. I’m exhausted. And my kids know me as mom, NOT AS DEANNA OR CANDID CHICANA.

I asked my three year old son “What’s mommies name?” and he said, “mommy.” 😂😂😂 I asked the same question several times, but unfortunately I’m just mommy. 😮

But someway somehow I have to make it work. I get up and try again each day. In between boiling the beans and peeling potatoes and seasoning the meat, I also have to pay attention to my babies, AND not forget who I am as well.

But like Pastor Craig says in the video, it’s ok to sometimes be going through a season that seems unbalanced and maybe chaotic. This too shall pass! In fact it will pass very rapidly, and the day will come when I wish they could be little again.

I am thankful for my daughter’s, my “little queens,” I call them. They are my damage control team. They are growing up to be very independent and I don’t always tell them how much I appreciate them, but I try to as often as I can.

Without their help, I wouldn’t even be able to poop 💩 by myself. My monsters are magnetically attached at my hips and 80% of the time they will scream bloody murder if I don’t let them come into the restroom with me. By the way….why do you think it’s called RESTroom? I clearly don’t get any rest in there.🤷‍♀️

So thank you, to you my beautiful little queens. Mami ❤’s You! Without you, I wouldn’t accomplish anything. And I am so thankful God made you mine.💋

I’m currently working on updating two of my blogs and I have a new story brewing. Also, I fell behind on my inkchallenge. I’ll try to catch up tonight.

I’ve also downloaded the kindle reader app once again to start reading more. I got 10 free books for signing up . So I’ll post a pic of what I’ll be reading for awhile. It may take me awhile to read them. I remember I used to be able to read an entire book in one day. Those days are long gone now.

Oh yeah, don’t forget to work on your writing prompt for the week to be entered in Candid Chicana’s very first writing contest. This week’s prompt is:

Your favorite moment in film

And you can submit your entry to:

candidchicana@gmail.com

Midnight on 10/31/2017 is the deadline for submitting an entry.